emptiness...

There he was, sitting here staring at the moving screen of the msn chat dialog, thoughts of many things came rushing through his head till it just becomes blank. Looking away from his screen to the night outside the opening of his window, he felt so lost in the darkness. Maybe emptiness would be the word to use to describe this. He knew he needed something but he just could not figure out what it was. Love? Maybe. His heart felt a sudden ''pang''. What did that mean? Reading through his conversations, THAT feeling became stronger and it was miserable. "Helpless", he thought to himself. He was not able to help his friends.The only reply to them was : "ok" or "sorry to hear" or juz " ..." . He wanted to cry but he was a man. He could not do that! His thoughts were over pouring and were killing him slowly, little by little, taking away the happiness he could bring to his loved ones. There was no one he could turn to. It will be weak if he does. Even if he said, who would understand? All he could do was just to put up a strong front."When will this end..." a tear rolled down his eye...