Another round of war

Another round of war.....

I thought the wait was over.
I thought my life, which was taken away one and a half years ago would start again today.
I had plans…

But I am defeated.

The start of my life which was so near have become unreachable again.
Yet everything seems to have come to a stand still.
I guess reality of the defeat has not strike me hard enough to realize what is going on…

When it does, I guess all I can do is cry bitterly like a small child.

I have to face IT again…… another round of war… another round being humiliated by IT… another six months of my life taken away.

Maybe I would never reach that starting point of my life again.

Maybe I am destined to be where I am now…

In a world without life.