Losing myself

Losing myself

Call me foolish
Tell me it’s impossible
Tell me that I’m throwing away something that is worth so much more
I know that all these are true
But I just do not understand
Why am I still holding on to something that could probably be nothing?
I’m losing my grip
What if I decided to take that leap but it turns out wrong?
Would I be able to go back and reverse everything?
Selfish thinking
I hate myself now.