-useless-

The door slammed from behind. Tears of anger and hurt rolled down her cheeks. "Why couldn't have i took the initiative to perform my duty as a filial daughther? why couldn't i have done more?". Looking back at the thought of her tired mother lying at the sofa, trying to pinch some rest after a hard day's of work, before she starts again with the daily chores, her heart breaks.
An evening for her was to watch tv while her mother sweeps the floor and washes the clothes. If only her father would have tired NOT to say anything, nothing of this would have happened. " Girl ar, can you go dry up the dishes, your mummy is already so tired. And wife ar, this kinda of thing is only a small matter, don't have to do, leave it to the children."
In her heart, she knew her father meant well, but it just came out the wrong way. " WHY CAN'T MY BROTHER DO! I DID MY PART! WHY CAN'T MY FATHER DO IT EITHER! ONLY KNOWS HOW TO COMMAND AND SAY".
Do guys only know how to say and say and say but they do not take action at all? "I hate them..."
"It's no use. Life is meant to be led this way. Am I being too selfish and unreasonable to think this way? Please forgive me my Lord..." as she wiped of the tears from the corner of her eyes.

emptiness...

There he was, sitting here staring at the moving screen of the msn chat dialog, thoughts of many things came rushing through his head till it just becomes blank. Looking away from his screen to the night outside the opening of his window, he felt so lost in the darkness. Maybe emptiness would be the word to use to describe this. He knew he needed something but he just could not figure out what it was. Love? Maybe. His heart felt a sudden ''pang''. What did that mean? Reading through his conversations, THAT feeling became stronger and it was miserable. "Helpless", he thought to himself. He was not able to help his friends.The only reply to them was : "ok" or "sorry to hear" or juz " ..." . He wanted to cry but he was a man. He could not do that! His thoughts were over pouring and were killing him slowly, little by little, taking away the happiness he could bring to his loved ones. There was no one he could turn to. It will be weak if he does. Even if he said, who would understand? All he could do was just to put up a strong front."When will this end..." a tear rolled down his eye...