guilt kills

History is happening again...

I'm getting dragged away from the hand that is holding me..

my brain is in a mess...

why am I so affected by it?.

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the crack line formed in my heart is surfacing again...

it is getting deeper...

what am I to do?

should I make the mistake I made last time or another new one..

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FUCK. HATE IT..DO YOU KNOW?!

I don't think so.....

will it last?

A crumbled life took a turn.
It seems that my life,
suddenly has taken off to another ground.
The light I saw,
was a hand that I could hold on to.
I am reaching out, holding on now,
But how long would it last?
I hope it is forever....

is that hope?

After being hidden within the four walls of darkness

A little light sparkled through the crack above

Is that a source of hope for me?

Or is that Just another sign of deeper trouble?

For now I can only pray

That that light

Will bring me out

From where I am now...

happy mother's day

To my dearest Mum...

I love you...

To all mothers, grandmothers, mothers-to-be...

Happy and Blessed Mothers' day

Typical IRC guys...

Sometimes I really wonder am I speaking to the same person or his clone on the IRC.
2 windows open at the very same time


Conversation 1:


guy: hi
hey
guy: intro pls
17/f
guy: do u have pic?
nope
guy: u attached?
no
guy: i c den how many ex do u have?
none
guy: ok
ya
guy: u open?
no


Conversation 2:

guy: intro?
17.f
guy: 20m here ,attached?
nope
guy: got pic?
Nope
guy: ok how many ex u got?
none
guy: ic u openminded?
no

how cool is that man...

This is copyright from the IRC conversations,

hot from the Oven

Enjoy...

This is it...

1:05AM..

Not exactly the time to be online as claimed by the owner of me...

But what can I do?

Mind is a Mess...

Mind becomes a Blur...

Mind is blank.

Meaningless ...