Friday, May 26, 2006

pre-fetc

"pre-fetc"

I'm human!
I'm not perfect!
So, stop making me live your expectations and be what you want me to be!
Someone ever so perfect in your eyes.
I'm not perfect!
only human...

Monday, May 08, 2006

questions

Questions...

Are there people who are born stupid?
Are there people who have a perfectly functional brain but are still stupid?
If there is, I know I'm not alone.

Sometimes I really wonder if there's something wrong with me?
She wants me to be an independent person.
A "power-woman". Someone who is firm.
A little less girly-girl.

I know where she is coming from
I am trying so hard, but all I do is just break down.

Time and time again I disappoint her. It sucks for your information.
We have the same genes.
But why am I not like her? Or is she not like that either?

Why do I sometimes think that she wants me to be that person who she herself wanted to be?

Sometimes I'd wished I was as smart as my brother.
Sometimes I'd wished I achieved something to make my family proud.
Sometimes I'd wished I could just be the person that she wants me to be.
Sometimes I'd wished I never existed.

i suck

I SUCK.

She hates my humble self
She hates me to be "Mr nice guy".
She hates me to say thank you

She thinks I am incapable of anything
She thinks I smile too much.
She thinks I have too much in my mind when I have zero.

I SUCK! You know that?
I am one stupid girl that my family has to bear with

Maybe she's right
I am as she claims.
I suck. period.

Friday, May 05, 2006

Behind the Shadow

behind the SHADOW

A black figuring casted by the street lights,
The curvaceous outline, the tied-up hair that swinged gently as she walked.
She was perfect. A lady every man would desire.
However it was not a picture perfect fit.

She stared at the reflection which stared back at her.
Everything became so distinct.
Reality world hit her hard.
Now she was a lady no man will take a second glance at.

How she wished she could hide behind that shadow forever.
At least there is no discrimination

Thursday, May 04, 2006

patience

Patience

Typed. waited. There was no reply...
Typed.waited. Time seem to crawl pass but there was no reply
Typed.waited.stonned.
...Slience...
Should the wait carry on?
But, one virtue learnt... Patience